Jan 13, 2013; Atlanta, GA, USA; Seattle Seahawks head coach Pete Carroll reacts after losing the NFC divisional playoff game at the Georgia Dome. The Falcons won 30-28. Mandatory Credit: Dale Zanine-USA TODAY Sports

Gut Reaction: Seattle @ Atlanta

Just like that, it’s over. The Seahawks’ run for the Super Bowl snuffed out by a 49 yard field goal. It wasn’t bad enough that Seattle fans had to suffer through the incoherent diarrheic ramblings of the infinitely idiotic Brian Billick. They also had to suffer a soul sucking first half, amazing come back, and a late Tony Gonzalez catch over the middle to set up an Atlanta field goal. I’ll tell you right now, if you’re a glass-is-always-half-full type of person, you should probably just stop reading. Because, I’m not that type of person. Things like “bright futures” don’t make me feel better. They are hypothetical at best and no comfort in defeat right now.

I don’t know if I feel better having watched the Seahawks come back in an incredible second half after completely shitting the bed in the first half. Is a defeat like this which is ultimately due to the compounding of mistakes throughout the prior 59 and a half minutes better than losing in a blow out? I don’t know but right now I’m inclined to say I’d rather be blown out. It’s an arguable point but that’s how I feel.

Coming into this game, I believed if Seattle had to lose to anybody I prefer it be Atlanta. I was wrong. I’d prefer to lose to nobody and losing to anybody feels equally shitty. I can’t root for Altanta or Tony Gonzalez even though I like him as a human being. I don’t buy into the “if you have to lose, it might as well be to the eventual champion” school of thought.

I hate losing. I hate it with every ounce of my being. That doesn’t make me a “bad” loser or bad sport. Losing feels unnatural even though it’s happened countless times before. I refuse to accept it. Seattle could have won that game. They didn’t deserve to but they still could have. Going for it on fourth instead of taking a field goal looks terrible now. In the moment, it looked like Seattle needed a touchdown to stay in the game. It was wrong in hindsight but at the time I couldn’t argue with the decision. The defense could have decided to sack up and make a stop at any point in the first half. They didn’t.

Other people can focus on all the good things, both real and theoretical. Right now all I can do is focus on what was the ultimate outcome, defeat, and grieve. I hope Seattle is better next year. I hope that good things are on the horizon, but for whatever reason, that “bright future” is like an oasis in a desert that is only a mirage. It doesn’t exist until it’s real and then I can celebrate. Unfortunately, that isn’t today. Russell Wilson can look forward to next year. Other fans can look forward to next year. For me I have to go back to a normal every day life, where I don’t make millions of dollars, and devotedly defend my city and teams against the rest of the country. There is no joy in Mudville for me.

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  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000299579551 Rick Findley

    Thanks, I could not have said it better myself. I have been a fan for 30 years, but regardless, Seattle’s window as an elite team is open. I too, have to deal with haters because I root for this team and today does not make it easier. But, the day will come when we do hoist the Lombardi trophy, it will come.

    • 12thMan_Rising

      even with the loss today, it feels like it will happen soon. Huge expectations next year. have to go into the Season thinking Super Bowl.

  • Hawk_Eye

    How do we lose the game with 33 seconds left in the game after the 2nd biggest comeback in NFL playoff history? Heartbroken….

  • http://twitter.com/itsjenlawrence Jennifer Lawrence

    Well written. I feel like you feel my pain as much as I do.

  • Tim

    Your coach lost the game for you, but trash talking teams that play dirty just don’t go all the way.

    • Hanley H. Bonynge

      You mean talking trash like you’re doing right now?

      • Tim

        I’m stating a fact that Seattle is pretty proud of .Wow, look at all the hits you get when you google Seattle and trash talking! http://espn.go.com/blog/boston/new-england-patriots/post/_/id/4732227/seattle-db-takes-pats-trash-talk-to-twitter

        • Hanley H. Bonynge

          I wasn’t denying anything. Just making a point. Although, if you generally mean one player, just refer to the player, not an entire team. My sensibility isn’t as easily offended as yours though. So your point is lost in this arena. As far as playing dirty, you’re completely wrong. The Seahawks are not a dirty team.

          • Tim

            The point ain’t lost since you didn’t deny it. But it probably is just your defense that has the most fault. But history shows us that what goes around comes around.

          • Hanley H. Bonynge

            The only point you’re making through you terrible logic and bad grammar is that you don’t know enough about what you’re talking about to have an actual discussion. A irrational belief in karmic superstition also would undermine any sort of argument you’re attempting to make. The idea that there is some sort good/bad energy or other metaphysical thing that exists in the world to punish bad people and help good people, especially in sports, is ridiculous.

            You don’t like trash talk? I suggest you stop watching professional sports and refrain from participating in any yourself.

            You think Seattle plays dirty? Please provide some evidence that isn’t simply a coach or media pundit doing some political posturing before or due to the result of a game.

          • Tim

            Wait until next year and the year after that….Coaches and media pundits are perfectly valid sources of opinion. Maybe not so for fanboys who will get disappointed again and again. You can call it anything you want, it won’t change until they clean up their act. And your coach cost you SIX easy points. Your whole team saw it, that’s something that will eat up his credibility.

          • Hanley H. Bonynge

            You still aren’t backing up either of your claims. You’re just making a lot of noise.

          • Hanley H. Bonynge

            I’m also curious to know what team you support that is a paragon of the sportsmanship and clean play that you so vigorously troll over.

    • Hawkman

      GO stink up you own boards!

      • Tim

        A little bit sore right now?

  • 703matt

    Couldn’t have said it any better. Completely gutted

  • Vick

    I feel the same way except I still cannot figure out why we didn’t put points on the board with a field goal. Didn’t make sense then and even less now. Were our coaches (co-ordinators) really in this game. Looks like it was partly bad coaching and decisions. Eventually, I will feel better. We are a team on the rise and while today that doesn’t really help, it will in time. Go Hawks !!!!

  • Andrew Buck

    Quit being such an incredible sore loser.
    It took Peyton Manning 4 years just to make it to the divsional round of the playoffs.
    Russell Wilson did it in his first.
    Seattle has the second youngest team in the league and are going to be great for years.
    Multiple sports anaylist’s like Mike Florio predict the Seahawks to win multiple superbowls in the next 10 or so years.
    Would you rather be a jaguar fan?

    • Hanley H. Bonynge

      I am a sore loser. I hate losing. I have no shame in admitting that and don’t think there is anything wrong with it. Nobody is blaming anything on anybody other than their own team.

  • http://www.facebook.com/michael.duerre Michael Duerre

    Like everyone here, I’m still stinging from this loss. Having the victory torn from our team by three well-placed strikes and a 49-yard kick through the heart of a tired defense was more painful than suffering a blowout loss. I AM a glass-is-half-full type, though, so I see the Seahawks’ ability to come back from a serious deficit two games in a row as a plus. I look at the fact that with Chris Clemons, this likely would have been a different game with a different outcome. PC and his staff made some questionable decisions during the game, but they’re also the people that put this team together and took it this far. So, while I’m pissed that Carrol didn’t go for 3 in the 1st half instead of going for it on 4th and inches, I have to give the guy the benefit of the doubt. We go into next year absolutely stacked and with cap room to get much better. PC and JC have shown that they can draft exceptionally well and have succeeded in making this team into a perennial contender in three short years. It didn’t happen this year and that hurts. But I, for one, am already excited to see what the draft and the offseason brings! Thanks for a great ride and Go Hawks!

    • http://twitter.com/Hawker_03 Micah Nelson

      Wow I have to say everything you say I agree with. I questioned some of the called (after the fact) but I think that we have to trust this front office and this team. When the 2005 Run happened we were trying to load up after before our time runs out. With a rookie Quarterback like this we could be set for the next 15 years. This was an amazing fun run and there will be many more to come. Wow, Russell Wilson is for real and we are so blessed to have a go like that. Kaepernick was so busy picking fights with the other team and flexing, not once Did Wilson do any of that, much like either Manning or Brady (other than in Seattle). He is a good solid leader and I cannot be more excited for him and this Seahawks future. #GoHawks

  • horatio mindbottom

    good article. why play a prevent defense when the other team only needs a field goal? how many times do you see this? i would have loved a blitz. show some gahoonas, some mojo! pin your ears back and double team, of all people, Gonzalez. a great comeback totally ruined with premature celebrating. i had seattle +3 but also for the win. it would have been so nice. :-(

    • 12thMan_Rising

      The defense at the end was weird. They were in 3 deep zone, but they also blitzed a linebacker on both plays. It wasn’t prevent, but it was soft and uncharacteristic.

  • Hawkman

    Always take the points, ALWAYS! Pete carroll gets an F in my opinion!
    as I said earlier – Irvin is too light to play @ DE against the run or full time and the underneath Pass D ( everything in the middle) had to play well and didn’t- and the Swezzy experiment should have been put off until the spring! How sad to lose after that second half! Fix the things that need fixin and move forward!

  • ricefield

    Hanley, agree with you 100% losing sucks! 3 things l’d like to see happen with the Hawks for 2013. 1. Keep Zack Miller. He and R.W. are definitely in synch. 2. Get another pass rusher who can play every down. Irvin looks very 1 dimensional right now. 3. A better 2 minute defense. Losing 3 regular season games and 1 playoff game in the closing minutes does not speak well of the D. I’m no expert so I don’t know if it is schemes or players but something has to be done. At the beginning of the season a 9-7 would have been good. 11 wins was pie in the sky. Next year nothing but a Super Bowl seems satisfactory with these guys and a few tweaks. Go Hawks 2013!

    • Hanley H. Bonynge

      Completely agree with all your points. And yes, 11-5 would have been plenty to make me happy at the beginning of the season. Then I got hooked on winning.